Dust-retired blog

considering a move of blog

2007-08-07T16:24:00.001+10:00

thinking of moving my blog (which shouldnt create problems for too many lovely people)
im leaving the past behind me. yes my past is part of me and forever will.. and im proud of all that lovely history of ranting and raving with some sharing ><
seeing as im mostly a people pleaser and im going to be sharing this blog with more people than usual and i cant quite remember (lol) if ive said anything negative or something.. ah well.. better than to be safe than sorry... (ah now you are all searching thru to see if ive actually written anything juicy other than my personality conflicts with some long distance relatives or somethin'.. ) ive been doing alot of thinking, alot of reading and more thinking (pretty much going around and around in circles as i do)

my gawd i read one article on how to make ur blog better and it suggested writing reviews.. so everytime i pick something out of the cupboard or play something or use something im thinking should i write a review? lol.. i think im driving myself nuts.. would anyone care to read a review on fairy sprinkles? or bi-lo milk powder.. lolz..

exercise is something very much on the backburner.. yes i am limiting myself to this melbourne cage (a apartment with no back yard, gym,pool, personal trainer.. what was that you said? wishful thinking? ah, true!) and we are stuck here til:
1) pay enough off the credit card to get right back into debt again with paying bond and however many weeks in advance it is now to actually get a real estate agent to look at our applications.
2) wait for a good enough reason to leave without fulfilling the lease. or wait til lease is over in 08.
3) i find a place that i like, in a good area.. thats close to jhubbys work.. wishful thinking? ah yes true again!
4) after waiting to pay enough of our cc to afford a dell box (as hubbys and my stuff calls for a computer with actual grunt and processing power.. stuff that my lil laptop just cant handle without frying its brains out) then we still have to pay to get the rest of our stuff at my mums.. and then it will be my birthday, hubbys birthday and then oh crap its christmas already? and whats this you want to go to sydney? ah i must be kidding myself! 2007 the year of debt dragging on forever!!

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Great Joke ~ tech knowledge needed ~ How was i born?

2007-08-07T13:43:00.000+10:00

One day, a boy, rose in a computer-professional Info. Tech. family, asks
his Dad, "Daddy, how was I born?"
His Dad thinks for a while, sighs and replies, "Ah, my son, I guess one
day you would have to find out anyway! "

"Well, you see, your Mom and I first got together in a chat room on MSN.
Then I set up a date via e-mail with your Mom and we met at a cyber-cafe.
We entered into a secure folder, where your mother agreed to a download
from my hard drive.
As soon as I was ready to upload, we discovered that neither one of us had
used a firewall, but it was too late to hit the Delete button.
Six weeks later, your Mom sent me an instant message saying that her
operating system was showing signs of unauthorized program activity from a
self extracting file which had implanted itself in her operating system.
Then, nine months later, a little Pop-Up appeared!
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Big Brain Academy~Nintendo DS

2007-08-07T12:10:00.000+10:00

Review: Games that make people think are quite popular lately!
The ultimate function is the test, which randomly choses 1 mini game from each class; think, analyze, compute,memorize & identify and then comes up with how much your brain weighs, a grade and what occupation your brain suits. Right now mine is a C+ a musician at 1032g!

(i've been dumber e.g a fashion designer, Shakespeare! lolz) Each class/lesson comes in 3 difficulty options, easy,med and hard. Medals are rewarded for different scores bronze, silver, gold and platinum. I find this game quite a challenge and i suck at the maths compute and think classes, but i can ace the memorize and identify. im pretty sure, if u look in the blue hexagon, you can see a yellow line? thats my highest score outline and the red area in the hexagon was my current score for that exam ><

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an update is on the way

2007-07-31T12:46:00.000+10:00

my weight is not the centre of my life.. and ive been avoiding my weight loss buddies (so sorry) and i have been avoiding my problems and feeling alot of shame etc...
up til now/recently my goal of this blog was to connect and to express my weight loss journey and along the way snippets of my life and ramblings.
i used to think weight was my only problem.. or perhaps i blew it up so big that it was the only problem i could see.. and altho there are many layers that make up that problem all i could see was the top layer.. the physical layer.. ME and my BIG butt! LOL!
So my goal now is to be un-ashamed of me.. of my interests etc.. to open up and share all about the many layers that make me.. ME! ^^
many apologies to my friends, ive been lurking too much.. u guys deserve so much better!
so an update is on the way.. r u ready for it? lol

Tia turned 4!

2007-05-17T08:33:00.000+10:00

Tia turned 4 on the 11th! wow! time has gone so quickly.
we only recently got a new camera a sony cybershot 7.2MG pixel. so not great and not expensive (thank goodness) so 99% of the pictures of Tias birthday are blurry! and then after re-lighting the candles to get a good shot she was soo good she would blow them out b4 i took a picture! doh! and so i have alot to learn about all the different settings and i luv taking videos now! whoot!
But then james isnt happy sharing alot of the videos of Tia for the whole public.. so might have to put them up, tell family n friends and then change them every so often. I put some on you-tube and then tried out photobucket and wow did that take forever to upload compared to youtube!
Does anyone know of some good freeware video editing software? Or a good freeware software for photos/images as my GIMP program seems to be having issues. lol
So we had a little birthday party for tia, with just the 3 of us. She was pretty good having to wait all day for her dad to come home to start the party! And somehow even tho i tried, we ended up with more food than we needed! Tia had a great time doing the special arrowroot biscuits, especially when my mum rang and she got to do it all herself!
Tia has a thing for marshmellows at the moment, its like the new 'chocolate' for her, which i guess isnt too bad considering its sugar and not fat.. she still loves eating her baby fuji? apples, they are so tiny!
I also gave her a haircut as her ends were getting very knotty alot, and i think it was the worst one yet! she just wouldnt keep still and when James got home i got him to hold her head still! Just to fix it up a bit better! lol!
Tia got for her birthday; the pretty dress she is wearing, hair bands, a musical jewellery box, hello kitty raincoat, 2 skivies, tracksuit pants, eyeshadow, play doh, princess easter egg n bowl set.

day by day...

2007-04-13T08:10:00.000+10:00

thanks Maria for ur words! so true! :D
hmm, well im still eating crap, i restart my good eating habbits every meal! LOL! but thats better than my previous well i stuffed breakkie, lunch and have snacked waay to much i may as well eat crap for dinner too..
im giving it all my best to completely give up take out (except healthy subway or deli choices) altho im thinking of having once a month chips n burger so i dont go completely crazy (that and my head is against extremes)
i heard somewhere that it takes 24hrs a week working out to burn off 1kg of total fat.. but now i cant remember where that was..
ive been very home sick this week! (which hasnt helped my bad eating)
But im slowly getting myself back on track, working out how many ww points and what workout dvd i want, shopping around checking out weights... so im slowly getting my butt into gear!
its starting to get cold here! Im looking forward to some yummy healthy soups!! ^^ i just have to get a nice soup pot!

a girl needs a plan

2007-04-02T17:19:00.000+10:00

watched dr phil and they had a 700pound woman on the show and a 300pound young adult/teen? on as well.. then oprah had a repeat the one with the dr guy showing human organs of a 30pounds overweight stomache thingy compared to a skinny persons one.. a fatty liver, a tongue.. and then all about ghrelin (sp?) and leptin.. chicks waist measurement should be 31.5 and
i do want to be healthy and i do want to (answers phone.. good grief! >< yes we did get pizza last night and it was good and yes i wi take part in email surveys.. lol.. ) so i was saying i do want to fit, bouncy and happy.. i just need a plan.. ;) decide on what eating plan i will do.. what exercise plan.. on so forth.
and yes i had pizza last night.. ^^ but i havent been doing to bad eating wise at home.. well not terribly (since alot of bad stuff isnt in the house)
and the left over pizza is tonights dinner.. maybe my eating is 100% terrible..

on another note my shoulders are killing me.. im blaming bad posture+ sitting on the floor+ on laptop.. oww much pain..

i stayed up way too late last night paying games with hubby.. 1am! i have got to stop having all these late nights but i really enjoy being with hubby!

i watched the movie Loser? last night and it was great! apart from wanting to give the mean guys a talking too.. it had a great ending.. everyones happy, almost! and watched the pussycat dolls reality tv show/competition and that was interesting! gosh they had some hot bods on that show.. altho i think i was just admiring everyones tummies and lack of fat/stretch marks.. they may as well have been Victoria secret models!

what bout that tsunami warning, eh! glad we arent up north! poor Qlds theyve been thru the hot then the floods n cyclones to a tsunami warning..

zero

2007-03-30T09:59:00.000+10:00

i have zero motivation at the moment.. it just so happens to be TOTM too and so i have been feeling like crap. its dumb but im depressed bout how backwards ive gone! maybe when i get over myself i could actually have a perfect eating/exercise day.. hour.. minute.. ><
but until our house blasts sirens, lights and looks like a prison maybe i could get outside the house further than the mailbox while James is at work! his paranoia and from what ive judged of the few 30+ odd neighbours is that most are great, keep to themselves n problems theres jus a few dubious bad drug dealing bad eggs around here too! X( the dealers arent too bad its just the crowd that comes to the dealer.. and i havent worked out what it is yet (besides ruling out pot.. as its the most obvious) im thinking speed or heroin. im pretty sure someone O.D last week when the ambo and police turned up.. 0.o
on a better note..
ive broken my thumb nail a bit at one side edge where it should still be attached to skin so im thinking of trimming it and putting a band aid over the top so i dont accidently rip the nail off painfully if it gets caught on something.. owww.. ^^ i think ive only got Hi-5 band aids at the moment.. lol..
trying to be happy.. trying..
hey at least i didnt buy tim tams as they were on special last night! ah shucks!
and i also made a mud cake for james to take to his works .. relaxing beer party/meeting that happens on friday.. LOL! it looks pretty bad but it actually tastes really good.. i guess next time i shoud get some baking paper so the bottom half doesnt stick.. (very un-professional i guess to have the cake upside down and then squishing the stuff stuck on the bottom of the tin back where it should be on the cake?! lol)
missed out on alot of mcleods daughters.. get an aerial and then its the week when sport takes over mcleods spot.. bummer.. its always mcleods that ends up having 2 weeks off for some sport.. annoying!)
ive seen a bit of the catch up.. only a bit coz i could only last that long.. wow so trashy/crappy (its so sad that one of the presenters lisa oldfield married to yes-i-screwed-hanson-and-lied-about-it david oldfield had him on the show before the lie dectector test.. saying he didnt sleep with pauline..) *rolls eyes* i understand that alot (not saying i am or was) of young and the restless fans are upset that its gone off free tv to be replaced by 'the throw up' (someone else called it that and i jus agree)
did actually go out last night without laptops (just alot of prayer and faith) thursday night late night shopping was awesome! LOL! had 1/2 the total seats/tables to choose where to sit at the food court! >< im used to having the whole family spread out over the food court watching like eagles and walking/standing closer to a group that looks like they are leaving just to get a spot! or just not bothering and going for a closeby bench at charlie square.. i miss my charlie sq it had so much space (with the crowds so totally needed it) that and all free parking (and tons of levels of parking).. ^^ seems like its ur lucky day down here in VIC if u even score a free park! (i must admit it looks really dumb when people are talking to the ticket machiene.. but if somehow ur $50 credit has gone down to $4 id be willing to talk to the machine/operator far away too)

the idiot box is alive

2007-03-28T09:41:00.000+10:00

well the aerial is working.. have this odd channel 31? i dunno.. frankly its odd! ^^
biggest bummer is trying to tune in or even find the abc... the 1 channel Tia watches! (we r all going slightly crazy and even learning complete lines and sections and the songs from her dvd collection!!)

james was talking to a guy he works with and found out that he too plays the shakuhatchi (sp?) its been awhile since ive spelt it and since i havent added a picture of it in ages... this is what the japanese transverse bamboo flute looks like... http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Shakuhachi

1986	Peter Gabriel	So	"Sledgehammer" [0:00-0:16, 3:16-3:34]

1995	Michael Bolton	Greatest Hits (1985-1995)	"Can I Touch You... There?" [0:00-0:04, 3:26-3:50, 4:24-5:07]

2003	Linkin Park	Meteora	"Nobody's Listening" [0:00-2:57]

are a few of the most known songs i guess the instrument has been in..

anyways my eating has gone out the window-ish... not terrible but its still over eating (even if its the lite biscuits, n lite ice cream..)

A sad day.. in this world..

2007-03-22T09:39:00.000+11:00

Muslim pupils beat teacher to death over Koran

From correspondents in Gombe

March 22, 2007 04:32am

Article from: Reuters

MUSLIM pupils at a secondary school in northeastern Nigeria beat a teacher to death today after accusing her of desecrating the Koran.

Oluwatoyin Olusase, a Christian, was adjudicating an Islamic Religious Knowledge exam at the school in Gombe state when the incident occurred.

The students attacked her outside the school compound after the exam and killed her, witnesses said.

It was not clear exactly what Olusase had done that angered the students.

Police confirmed the killing and said their intervention had prevented the incident from turning into a riot.

"We have received information that a female teacher has been lynched by her students. We are investigating the report," Gombe state police commissioner Joseph Ibi said.

At least five people were killed and several churches burned down in February 2006 in the neighbouring state of Bauchi by Muslims infuriated that a Christian teacher in a secondary school had tried to confiscate a Koran from a student who was reading it during class.

Word got out into the streets that the teacher had desecrated the Koran, infuriating Muslims who went on the rampage.

At least 15,000 people have died in religious, communal and political violence in Africa's most populous country since 1999, when Nigeria returned to democracy after 30 years of almost unbroken military rule.

finally....

2007-03-21T14:55:00.000+11:00

James got the local job! thats pretty neat.. for all the interviews he went too he was offered the job (even if one was kfc.. hey kudos to them id never thought they would want to hire a 29year old! so age is no barrier.. despite what u get told by everyone else )

going out to dinner tonight been told is spag bol.. (as my mum would call it) so i cant see it being healthy.. and last nights dinner was a celebratory pizza (my 1st takeout junk food in a long while! yay me!! ) unfortunately it meant pizza was left over for todays lunch... ah well! I think im over pizza for awhile!! ^^ *fingers crossed*

i luv my freezer.. i luv my fridge... >< does that sound silly or what...

feeling a bit anxious bout going out to dinner tonight, people from church that weve been trying out are very friendly... im pretty sure we r going to a diff church (i think) this weekend.. uh so i had better figure out how on getting there and which one.. stil have ur list Jadey! thanks.

so im still thinking about running... i think 2 much no doubt! lol! downloaded a podcast on 1st week of couch to 5k in 7minutes and now have to find a converter to put it to mp3

i think its next door that gets confused and accidently opens our screen door and suddenly realises its the wrong flat and so closes... its odd.. to hear someone open the screen door and let it bang shut.. ><

had a late night.. 2.30am i went to bed.. i was er up playing ragnarok and got carried away unfortunately it was the same time that someone got dropped off by a big noisy 4WD.. and i dont think i nodded off til 3am..

a seedy feeling day

2007-03-19T19:21:00.000+11:00

Dont know what it is today, but i feel down right seedy.. niggling sick feeling.. cant think of anything that really explains it..
im slowly sleeping better.. i guess its as good as it gets with the bedroom right next to the driveway for 8 units! 4-5 cars... with the walls paper thin and the neighbors talking normal volume at 6am in the morning..
The bunch of us at our block of units are interesting.. drama after drama unfolds.. and i guess everyone knows each others business with the walls being so thin.. that and the most drama comes from next door, poor thing! meh.. i think i will try my hardest to stay out of the gossip..
been playing our new game, Samurai warriors 2 on xbox 360.. and its awesome.
i wore my new shoes yesterday and got blisters... oww on both heels..

ive been trying out kikomans marinade/sauces the ones that huey advertisers.. the honey, ginger garlic and soy is the one ive been using.. quite nice and dont need much..

did quite a bit of laundry today.. the bathroom is packed! tried washing some curtains and i swear they r still yellow even tho the water went yellow.. i will have to get some bleach sometime and really make them 100% white..

low down on the jobs.
the graphic design job in bayswater is not a good pay rate.. bummer! James has the job and starts on thursday if he wants too (it turns out theres not alot of designing in the job even tho that what it was advertised as.. what the??!!). the frankston job has a round 3 interview tomorrow, pays better and would mean that we dont have to move again and God wants us to be in frankston for the long term.

its saturday already

2007-03-17T11:37:00.000+11:00

well... what a week! been kept constantly on our toes.. waiting to find stuff out.. crazy..
anyways Happy Birthday to Maria! ;)
(hope u have a good one!)

if only i had flour, a mixing bowl i would be able to make some bananna bread/cake... yes i now have a cake tin which i used as a pie tin last night! lol!yummy filo pastry sheppards pie!

got new shoes.... and i want more!!!! lol!!! i survived on 3 pairs of shoes for 2months and then downgraded to 1 pair of shoes for 1month.. now if i chuck out my old shoes i will be back to just the 1 pair... im worried bout blisters.. hmm.. ah well got to wear in the shoes some day!

Townsville dec 15th anniversary dinner

2007-03-06T21:19:00.000+11:00

dictonary
Adjective: stonkered
Usage: Brit, Austral, NZ

[Austral, NZ] Very drunk
- besotted, blind drunk, blotto, crocked [N. Amer], cockeyed, fuddled, loaded [N. Amer], pie-eyed, pixilated, plastered, slopped, sloshed, smashed, soaked, soused, sozzled, squiffy, stiff, tight, wet, legless [Brit], paralytic [Brit], mullered [Brit], bladdered [Brit], trolleyed [Brit], bombed, liquored up [N. Amer], tanked up, stewed, pickled, bevvied [Brit], drunk, pixillated, squiffed
Very tired
- knackered [Brit], drained [Brit], shagged [Brit], zonked out [Brit], shagged out [Brit], shattered [Brit], zonked [Brit]

See also: drunk, inebriated, intoxicated, tired

we celebrated our anniversary a night late up in Townsville (dec 15th). It was a good night out.. we visited the jupiters Casino found out quickly how small it was ( casino area size was, was like a normal nsw rsl pub! only difference the tiny VIP room and the few tables) but the building is huge with its hotel and resturant etc etc.. (i think in all our 5years of marriage we have spent $2 on the pokies... not the gaming type.. nope we must be just too smart!)

we found out that the casino restaurant was booked out and walked all the way the opposite direction to the street full of their restaurants and decided on good old bennys (that we visited in oct the year b4) and it was great... i was very spoilt and had i think 2 or 3 geisha girls or something it was awesome (and ive been making my own however much more weak) i got stonkered!(but not enough to be throwing up or unconscious... nooo im not into that much poison!) the drink contained: milk, cream, butterscotch schnapps, absolut vanilla vodka, chocolate topping, and i think kahula & the cherry!

the ones i rarely make at home (since it makes me very sleepy or annoyed that i cant concentrate) is like 1/10 of the strength! my own mix is glass of milk, choc topping and 1/4 nip butterscotch schnapps.

and on the night i thought id made up the greatest word to explain how i felt 'stonkered' only to find out now that i must have absorbed it from somewhere else... ah well.

We had a great night out having dinner and then hanging out smooching on the pedestrian bridge where the pic was taken...

pics from animania oct 06 sydney Town hall

2007-03-06T20:39:00.000+11:00

kimono sleeves in the making... oh and the weird stain
bit was me trying to save my work after
a little hand tried to help mummy
while she wasnt looking!

a bit late in posting... this is Tia and I on stage at sydneys town hall! i sewed the kimonos from my trusty pattern and hand painted them! 1st time cosplay (dressing up in costume to be some sort of character usually from anime or video games) our character was kokoro from dead or alive 4 which is on playstation 2.
My obi was of interesting design.. since i didnt have the budget to do a 12metre satin obi or the patience to learn how to do it perfectly and tightly.. i pre-made it with foam, velcro and lots of pins! it also meant that it didnt take a few hours just to put on and that it simple enough to fix up every hour and suitable for a 3year old also to wear!

~~> on stage at the end.. see im not the only crazy one!

Alot of theese pictures where taken by people in the crowd! I wouldnt want to be famous! I was surely treated like one on the day tho! All the girls loved Tia, she was so adorable and they loved that she sat down japanese stye in her kimono (little do they know Tia rarely sits still or always on her knees)

it was hard getting around with everyone asking to take pictures, a experience i wont quicky forget! Getting from one stall to another was a challenge (that and remembering afterwards where i wanted to go)

my kimono was far from perfect and had a few mistakes but i did pretty well in the little time i had... i made the pattern for Tia's kimono from scratch... so proud of that! lol!

the japanese realy do have to be skinny to look good or slim in a kimono! (especially the many layered winter ones)

so yeah... me who is to timid to go anywhere near a gym, let alone a pump class or anything... went on stage... dressed so differently and stood out in a crowd.. drew attention to myself like i would not believe... yikes! and having a ton of cameras going off all by complete strangers and then finding them on the web! what an experience!!!!!!!!!
AAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHH
(i will continue to hide now)

in city

2007-02-14T11:59:00.000+11:00

writing very quick.. in the city and its well.. noisy, dirty and busy... but its a city..
last night some homeless hungry dude swiped or punched some guy walking beside us on bourke st (he previously went thru a bin) it was a calvin klein bag.. so the poor dude had some taste.. and the other dude was freaked..
its our 4th night and 3rd day in the city.. saw some old famous tv dude.. john something.. blue heelers?! i know the face dont remember the name...
chinatown last night.. we found it! lol! all the way up the other end.. very small, crammed.. more pricey but some awesome japanese resturants there... altho i wouldnt eat anything there.. as seafood=yuk 2 me.. still house hunting.. waiting on 2 appications.. doing another house today looking in footscray and sunshine.. might do frankston tomorrow.. as the rentals have been up for ages and they r still there... so maybe it would be easier.. and whats 1hr from the city anyways compared to the 3hrs we were previously from sydney?! and its coastal which means it would be colder and lots of parks and beach/coast..

When a weight is lifted off ur shoulders

2007-02-07T23:52:00.000+11:00

God came thru for us today! As we were about to call centrelink (as they said they would call previous day but didnt), centrelink called us! And everything is sorted out! (until we get down to Victoria, and then there will be more centrelink visits and forms..)
Theres what 2 cyclones and a 3rd low pressure system hanging around up here. Which means just strong winds and tons more rain!
The front yard here isnt draining well and green fungus is on the soil and the grass is slowly going yellow coz its been under water for soo long now! The roads are full of extremely dangerous and huge potholes! wow!
on another note, im being eaten alive by mozzies, and i seem to be the only one being eaten! and im reacting badly to them like never before....
My eating diary (if i could keep 1) would be the worst ever, my excuse being we dont have enough money to feed everyone here healthy stuff on our previous tiny budget, my MIL would still have to cook for her son anyways (extreme carnavore diet) its not my kitchen.. but excuses aside, i will have my own kitchen very soon!
Hubby got his szechuan peppercorns today with sake for the stir fry tomorrow night. cant wait!!!!!
now to check ticket prices again for Friday!

crazy time

2007-02-06T16:16:00.000+11:00

WOW!
its been awhile!
so we r up in north queensland, with all the floods, heat and cyclones lurking around and i'm itching to get out of here and down into our new home down in victoria!
Ive got my eyes on place in particular it has so many simularities to where we lived in nsw! So its definately a awesome place for us, not far from the city 15kms or so.. theres tons of schools and shopping, banks and all the stuff we need. It will mean us walking a bit more to get to places, but then thats cool with me!
(i can do with all the help i can get right now)
So we r looking into the surroundings of this suburb and found a few places very close to one another (like a walk down the road from each other) and all in a reasonable cost for us too!
So thinking of flying down on the friday, staying the night somewhere... doing something with our luggage and then going off to real estate agents and asking for the key to inspect this place i want! filling out the forms and waiting for that call back.. this house is available on the friday so getting keys on saturday wont be a problem.. its just what to do with our 'travelling house' (the luggage)
its been good staying with james parents (inlaws) and Tia has grown to get to know them all and have a bit of fun altho she isnt much into the cuddles n kisses with them... lil kids can be so weird like that.. anyways God has been good to us up here and my inlaws have been so great... altho i have been a brat alot to them.. ah shucks!!!!
the weight has been piling on, its pretty bad.. all that hard work, sweat and tears (eating healthy and not the crap) has gone to waste.. bugger! i have been under sooo much stress it isnt funny.. im sure ive lost 10yrs of life just in stress... crap! ah well all can be gained back when we finally settle in our own place.. and all we have a tiny budget.
centrelink stink! ^^ but thats what u get i suppose... it not just living expenses u recieve its more like compensation for going thru all their mistakes, blunders and 1 person saying stuff that ws different to the person u talked to the previous day.. and letters sent late but dated 5 days ago?! AARRRGHHH!!!! weve called up sooo many times! >< its meant to be settled today.. but we shall see... as we have heard all that and other stories before... i'm sure to them a family of 3 is meant to live off $230 a fortnight... lucky we dont have to pay rent!!!!! rant over... *sigh*
did i mention our house is in our suitcases? we have inflatable mattresses and stuff.. no fridge, microwave and stuff like that.. so it will mean paying off the debt of getting down there and getting a place and then looking at fridges and getting some of the stuff we didnt sell shipped down! lol! we will have a xbox 360 but no tv! lol! ><

spent a night on magnetic island with james in a bungalow... it rained the next day and i was missing Tia alot... the ferry ride was very queasy with the high swell (townsville has no waves.. it also has mud and not sand!) and of course in townsville when its stinking hot the stingers, sting rays and sharks, crocs r out at the beach... a bus fare here 1 way is $5! and they only come here like 5 times in 24hrs... its nuts! >< the only way to live up here is to own and drive a car and work most of 24hrs in a day as its sooo boring! (it doesnt help that we have to wait around for centrelink each day and have no money anyways to do anything and cant really buy anything as we already paid $98 in excess luggage in sydney on the way here) and shops are shut on sunday WTH?! ok townsville rant over...

im going to miss my wonderful inlaws... they have been awesome.. wish they lived more south tho!

my parents r moving to canberra from newie! yay! its been a long time comming!
so that will make them closer again to us in melb.

weve been thinking, planning and dreaming alot up here.. alot of our first planning seems so crazy! the whole thing is crazy! But God is in control so everything seems to be working out! ^^
i hate saying goodbye so ... wow i did a really bad job at that... somehow with alot of mis-information most of church believes we r moving to brisbane?! to be closer to the inlaws.. but yeah.. dunno how they got that idea! Its melbourne!!! should really finish telling people.. altho i dont really have a way to contact them anyways.. ah well..

have to re-focus and pay off debt and loose weight.... plan to start trying for a lil boy around october this year... and i plan on making that pregnancy much healthier than i was with Tia... hopefully i will have more brains when it comes to cravings and instant lazy take away food.

I just cannot wait to settle! James can start looking for a job once we get down there as the distance and the fact that we arent already down there and nothings cemmented that no-one looks at his resume/letter twice!

animania!

2006-08-29T14:05:00.000+10:00

another not so bad week... think the only bad thing was that supreme pizza on sunday night? when most other shops where shut and i felt really sick... pizza was the only thing that didnt make my stomache turn over..
past couple days havent been good.. either had guests over or on friday night had huge migrane ouch! so only did 1/2hr on bike and thought id get to it later at night but i felt like i had been hit over the head with a frying pan! my neck and my shoulders were so tense and painful... a hot shower and bed at 8.30 helped alot..
so no bike over the weekend? i think.. but did an hour yesterday so should get back into the swing of things soon!
Got a new game 'Harvest moon, a wonderful life special edition' pretty cool, much cooler than the old playstation 1 version..
on the plus side i did finish the 'hello kitty, roller rescue' game.. i was shocked i thought it would get harder and that there was more to the game.. but thats cool just means Tia can play it in a few years time..
*sigh*
been stressed and excited. have just heard about a few conventions on in sydney!
one being animania, sydney town hall over the long weekend sat/sun. Going with hubby and Tia, probably stay overnight somewhere.. we are all going to cosplay (costume play) and so i have alot of work to do.. alot of sewing and stuff!
decided that i will go as this character, Kokoro from Dead or Alive 4 (video game)its very pretty and just involves making a kimono (easy peasy) and then painting the flowers on (as theres no way the fabric exists) been studying pictures of her and what other people have come up with and picking out their mistakes.. so i hope not to make the same ones! i will have geta (the shoes) but not that high.. as its an art to walk in them.
So animania will be cool, a few other cosplayers.. and video game lovers and anime lovers all in the one place! I will have to pretend to be not so camera shy too.. Tia i think will cosplay in the same outfit, only much smaller.. LOL!
we make theese plans then james calls his mum and she says they will be down in the last week of september! When we plan to spend the last day(s?) of that last week in sydney. they are comming down and spending time in sydney and then would be comming up to see us. Well that put a bit of stress on me, as we have no clue when they are comming down and we already have plans. but james says that we have made plans and will stick with them! and we can always see them down in sydney! (but i think they want to go up anyways to see all their old church friends!)
anyways my birthday is comming soon.. will be 24 this year? oh gosh, like i have a clue.. will have to get the calculator out to make sure.. i dislike getting older but since living with hubby we are becomming one another! eep! he now has a love for food and my cooking.. and i'm slowly not caring about my age and dates as such.. altho i do try and go all out when it comes to Tia's birthday.. but maybe that goes for all parents?! hmmm
the date was wrong on my phone, so that explains why it went off on the weekend (when it wasnt programmed to) and why it didnt go off this morning (when it was meant too) so we woke up a bit late.. only 8.30am.. altho hubby is meant to start at 8am!!! oops! im glad his work needs him soo badly (its not the first time this has happened)
anyways its all gray and cold... and have alot left too do.. been very busy!
cya

let me think for a sec

2006-08-14T08:25:00.000+10:00

well.. 1st rant for today: Since when is it called a peace rally when aussie lebanese shout "down! down! USA!"????!!!! thats not a chant for peace! geez!

Well i havent reported since day 3 of trying my hardest! Let me think of how well i have or havent done.. hmmm well no doubt weekends are very tough!
Exercise for the week: [Exercise Bike]
mon & tues 1hr
wed 45mins
thurs 1hr 10
fri 1/2hr
sat 1/2hr
sun 1/2hr

I didnt have a 'rest' day i was very worried that id have that 'rest day' and then have some more 'rest' days! I know just doing one form of exercise isnt the greatest but im so darn lazy it will have to do until i really get bored or start enjoying exercising! I figured that on rest days you arent exactly meant to sit on the couch all day either.. and so by doing a few 1/2hrs it was pretty easy on my tender butt and sore legs and kinda made them not so sore anymore (if that makes sense)

I will confess ive been weighing each morning and pretty darn peeved! keep seeing 87! darn it, im doing really good and exercising my lazy butt and no rewards yet..
"patience my young padawan"~ yoda

so saturday: sausage egg mcmuffin, 1/2 hash brown, 1 sesame snap, 1 mini mar bar cheesecake, homemade lean burger n salad and tonight a mexican potato dish and a skim mocha caramelatte..
sunday: 1 fluffy pikelet whipped cream and strawberries, 5 smarties?, beef minute steak and salad roll, roll with lite marg, 1 chuppa chup, 1 chicken sweet chilli sauce n lite sour cream tortilla n salad.

so not great, but they are by far my worst days all week and i did pretty darn well good. considering!!!!!!!!! DARN FUNDRAISER CHOCS!!!! AAAAAAAAAHHHHHH! They drove me insane BUT i DIDNT have ANY! OH MY GOODNESS! me?! no chocolates?! Hubby has taken them to his work where they will stay and be bought! [$2 ea for: nestle crunch bar, peppermint crisp, aero bar, kitkat, kitkat crunchy, kitkat crunchy caramel, smarties, milo bar, violet crumble, milky bar] i did have like 5 smarties but Tia and james ate the rest of the box!
tons of chocolate but none really any of my favourites and the only tempting one was 20% saturated fat! The milky bar had 10g of saturated fat (and more other fats) but my goodness.
I did survive! yikes! And im so proud of eating all this salad stuff! LOL!

On another note, my hubby is clearing out the garage. Its pickup week this week so everyones trashy old lounges and junk are out.. he threw out all his junky pieces of electronic things like bits of motors, copper wire, transistors, resistors but he kept the good stuff and gave a ton of magnets to Tia who would try to play with them and get mad coz they would just snap all together or something...

i think i will be avoiding maccas for a very long time *fingers crossed* after reading that to burn off 1 big mac takes 1.5hrs cycling! so not worth that!!!

anyways Tia is sleeping in (why cant she do this on the weekend?!) almost 9am i had better start getting stuff done..
oh. Tia has gone up a stage in toilet training by getting herself up on the toilet (without her little step n toilet seat thing) No accidents all weekend, even out shopping! Still along way to go, like her telling me she needs to go and the dreaded no.2s!

Day 3 of being good!

2006-08-09T08:19:00.000+10:00

My head is still above water! Doing well!
not really bothered bout the gain as i expect a nice loss next week with all this good eating and exercise i seem to be the old me again that could loose weight and keep away from macdonalds!

speaking bout maccas. here they are trialing this new dinner menu of 'real food' like pasta and rendeng beef or pasta sauce or some sort of honey chicken but its all $7.95-$8.95.. and all microwaved! thats right. My brother has a friend that works at maccas and told him they have 9 new microwaves out the back to cook this new menu!
And so no deli choices are available after 5.30pm! and then at the express maccas (closer to my house) they have none of the deli choices (only lean beef burger) and all the fatty quarter pounders and stuff.. whats going on?! so much for healthy choices! (not that i plan on going back for ages anyways!!!) but still im going to whinge!
there! done!

paris hilton, heard the song awhile back on www.news.com.au website.. pretty boring song, nice back-up singer!!!.. hope she does well with it.. watched her interview with molly on sunrise, cant the girl talk?! she just seemed to mumble her answers/replies.. odd.

sugar/fat tax... do we really need to pay anymore taxes?! geez... only days ago it was alcohol tax fairly due to alcohol content of the drink to go towards helping people that are addicted to getting drunk... maybe there should be a methodone tax and a gambling tax and a desk job tax and a processed flour tax, a additives&preservatives tax... hell why not have a body rego day where you get a checkup and get fined for smoking, being obese, damaged liver, pos drug test, high insulin result/diabetes2??!!! why is it that only when our money disapears do we care what we are doing to ourselves?!

tia is doing tons better with toilet training down to 0 or 1 accident a day, if she decides to have a nap (eep!) or if it regards a no#2.. she was pretty good with her potty so to make it easier we call the toilet 'the big potty' seems to work better than 'toilet' for her! whatever works i suppose! and to her it is a bigger potty!

weigh in for last week

2006-08-02T13:04:00.001+10:00

the sooner my favourite season goes the better! i am on cold no.3 with cold no.2 just lurking with a rare wheezy cough.
cold no.3 is a head cold complete with constant sneezing, sinus pain, tons of blowing my nose(ew) and watery eyes... (on sudafed stuff)
and with too much macdonalds this week my weigh in is
PW 85.8
CW 86.4
GW 70
on that yo-yo still, with of course myself to blame. no bike exercise all week and too much macdonalds! oh well, have to keep telling myself i am not giving up/taking a break from this. also have to tell myself constantly im not on a diet im just meant to be eating healthy 2 be healthy. and that going to an extreme is not healthy.

from my LITS weigh in thread.. since i cant find it here on my blog

Green tea n stuff

2006-07-27T20:17:00.000+10:00

well.
Life is busy when im not glued to the video games! how odd, by choice i havent played any in the past 2 days and the day i played before that was only bout an hour or so!
i keep feeling like ive changed my life around or like im in some sort of stage in my life that ive been here before..
been busy cleaning, cleaning, cooking, gardening and all the little games and songs of Tia plus all the cleaning etc that goes with toilet training.. im not giving in, i will keep at it this time till it sticks like glue to her! (my goodness i/we need prayer in that)
so green tea, getting used to it. its not so plant in hot water taste.. i can actually drink it without pulling any faces! LOL! my immune system needs all the freakin help it can get!! im so sick of being sick! GRRR!
got fish oil tablets today, since i dont eat fish(by choice) so im sure my body will be so shocked to have omega 3!
since i was going to put this in my blog anyways this latest revelation, i posted it on LITS and have copied it here (for safe-keeping and to remind myself)

thinking bout how much you love yourself. clearly if you love yourself you want the best! You want to be healthy (and take the steps to get there) You want to avoid any more harm to your body and avoid risks of cancers, diabetes, heart disease(caused by obesity)
take note Love is not an emotion, Love is a choice. You have to choose to love yourself. (which i do understand is hard)

"Happiness is not a destination, it is a way of travel"

ok so i screwed up

2006-07-14T20:54:00.000+10:00

my weigh in for previous weight that i just put down pretty sure i got that wrong and put down the lowest weight i dropped too in that week (the next day! ha!) so ive been caught sneakin at the scales!! LOL!
ah well, im glad its an occasional thing and not a every morning thing!! much happier with that.. i have no clue what i was this morning or yesterday morning.. ;)
ive found my passion, altho silly i somehow can splurge in it as i like it heaps?! and its just for me! (i have some weird spending-money-on-self complex which i guess comes from a low income family and being the oldest.. ) so now i know what i want and i really want it! im aiming for it, and its a instant thing (not a having a baby in the future and going to japan next year or so perhaps) its a next week im going to loose weight and get me a hello kitty thing! i went to Target this week, they have a selection of 5 different pjs and a singlet and undies! (for adults)[of course pretty darn overpriced, but then i do have that complex of bargain hunting!] i did check out the kids stuff and was upset hello kitty stuff started at size 8 and so Tia misses out! aw!
but anyways Target was cleaning out some kid hello kitty accesories , so i got a watch for $1.86, some fingernail(hello kitty) transfers for 89c and a hello kitty hair-band for $1.89 so that was awesome! What i like at a price i like!
ive had pizza tonight, and too much garlic bread, but no stressing! Ive behaved for 5 days! a miracle! ;) and i only had er 4 pieces? @ 3.5pts each. (instead of 7/8 pieces in 1 sitting!)
also managed 35mins on the bike already tonight, wow im bit out of shape! Not that this cold helps! (will have to take care of myself and keep praying!)
I have to keep this butt moving to get down to 80 for my bday! *yawn* i could so fall asleep now..

sick of being sick & lots of babies going around!

2006-06-12T16:13:00.000+10:00

what a funny cartoon! ;) so true sometimes!
ive had this cold.. and hubby and i have been talking sooo much bout babies! he wants me to have the baby (birth and all) in japan.. and im just not keen on that!!! (might have to remind him of who is actually giving birth here!!! hello!) im keen on making bub in japan and having it at home (as well as most of the pregnancy.. i dont want to be a wide load in a busy place like japan!)
also Tia has been saying 'baby' alot, in reference to herself.. im not sure whats going on there.. she is a little girl now, not a baby ;) (so we keep telling her) she was saying baby so much when my mum visited that my mum thought there was a baby on the way! and there was some weird boy/girl thing she said to my brothers, my mum said 'i didnt think she went to any daycare/preschool" and no she doesn't! lol! She just called daddy a 'good girl' the other day! how cute! ;)
bleh! so ive been feeling sick, mainly at the thought of food and sometimes the smell.. but mainly the thought.. so i had to take a test to find out whether or not i was pregnant.. unfortunately i didnt choose the really good one you can just use anytime but some other one.. but i figure id have to be a few weeks in to be feeling sick and so it should pick up pregnancy if i am.. it doesnt figure mathmatically at all... so im figuring that this sick feeling is just this darned cold. ;)
its so freezing! loosing the little fat i have i am certainly feeling the cold!
i also believe that typing with gloves on should be a olympic sport, especially if they r for males and so much bigger! gah! ah well at least for once they arent so cold its painful!

ive been feelin pretty down these past few days, and ive eaten way to many dream freddos!
im wondering how well this weigh in will go with this cold and few hours on the exercise bike along with the freddos! eep!